dannyboi18

just an old song i wrote when i was 16 and torn by a girl )

Won't be sleeping tonight
its not that i refuse
its just that i cant
cause ive got nothing to lose
and im drowning in my pillow
and my eyes as red as blood
and i just cant help stop crying
as i am beat up by my love

your pictures rush in
pictures of you screaming
wish i could escape the world
where it hurts when you're dreaming
and i wish i had control
of what lies ahead
and i'd surely be gone
long before we met

cause its never your fault
and im never enough
and your words fill my head
with every ****ing puff
you're the reason i smoke
you're the reason i cry
you're the reason i wake up
regretting im alive
and no there's no hope
if there was, i would have taken it
but as my memory slowly slips away
im just sorry i was so imperfect

i feel like exploding
from all this confusion
so tired of your sweet kisses
that turn out as illusions
i feel my heart slipping away
from everything else
for torn are my dreams
of those hollow church bells

I dont want to ruin this moment
of perfect domininon
ive lost all of my sense
and my intuition
i've forgot how to feel
just to block all the pain
i just want you to be happy
as you bring me down again

cause its never your fault
and im never enough
and your words fill my head
with every ****ing puff
you're the reason i smoke
you're the reason i cry
you're the reason i wake up
regretting im alive
and no there's no hope
if there was, i would have taken it
but as my memory slowly slips away
im just sorry i was so imperfect

Oh all i ever wanted was to make you smile
Oh all i ever wanted was to make you happy
Oh all i ever wanted was some peace of mind
Oh all i ever wanted was you to love me
Oh but i didnt get that did I
Oh or do just have a funny way of showing it
Oh cause no matter what i do you're never satisfied
Oh im just sorry im so imperfect

cause its never your fault
and im never enough
and your words fill my head
with every ****ing puff
you're the reason i smoke
you're the reason i cry
you're the reason i wake up
regretting im alive
and no there's no hope
if there was, i would have taken it
but as my memory slowly slips away
im just sorry i was so imperfect